I'm not really famous for my cheery optimism or upbeat attitude. Since being in San Francisco, however, I've received more compliments on my good work ethic and smiling face than I ever have in my life. Maybe I'm good at faking it. Or maybe that's the kind of results (read: happiness?) that you get when you try to do what God asks of you.
I didn't exactly beg God to let me end up in San Francisco after graduating. In fact, I had a fantastic life plan, and a decent backup plan when that one proved to have failed. But He asked something different of me and made it so that this was the only thing that worked out. I had two choices: roll with it, come out here with no assurances on just blind faith, or deny Him and sit around doing nothing. The choice was clear: this is what He was asking of me, and, no matter how afraid I was or how skeptical I was or how reluctant I was...this was it. So now, I'm out here without a plan, save to go where He leads when He leads. (I just pray it doesn't take too long!!)
God's will is a tricky thing. I spent years discerning and praying for Him to show me His will about a million things. Sometimes what I discerned was correct, sometimes it wasn't. But it was always clear when the chips were down. He doesn't hide His will from us; we hide ourselves from Him.
"Perhaps your own reiterated cries deafen you to the voice you hoped to hear." - C.S. Lewis
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